What are some good ways to overcome internalized homophobia?

Hey guys, 25M here with a probably common problem but I still can't figure my shit out and I don't have anyone to talk to about this. I would appreciate your responses. Tl;dr at the bottom.I live in a progressive country but was born in another country where being gay or bi was a no-no. My parents never talked about sex, and I think they thought you should have sex only to have children. I have a memory of me being like 8 or 9 and being told by my mom not to put my hand on my dick (I didn't even know what jerking off was). My parents weren't/aren't too religious but are socially conservative and not too open-minded. Gay people/rights doesn't usually come up as a topic in my family sittings, but generally my parents don't think highly of being gay. In all other regards, wonderful parents. I'm still closeted and don't think I would be accepted if I came out.I've known that I'm sexually attracted to guys since I was a kid. An attractive guy would naturally steal my attention. I wasn't very attractive (also overweight) during my teens so there was admiration mixed with attraction I think. I'm much more fit now and take care of myself, if that makes a difference. I don't find girls as sexually attractive, but I have had crushes on both girls and guys. Of course, I never had any gay role models growing up and didn't think I might be gay until my early 20s tbh.I had a girlfriend in high school but didn't date much in college. This year in March, I decided to download grindr and I've been hooking up with guys and enjoying it. I'm mostly closeted to everyone (except my hookups, lol) and it scares me to have to come out. So by now I know I'm sexually attracted to guys; I've never had a proper boyfriend yet, but I think I will also be romantically attracted.I feel I judge myself when I think of myself as gay. I still have trouble relating to more feminine guys (who I think are awesome) and I'm always afraid what my high school or college friends will think if they find out I'm into guys. I hate that I feel this way. Given my childhood, I feel like this is an internalized aversion to being seen as gay. I'm stuck on how to overcome this? In your experience, what have been some good ways to relieve this emotional strain? To overcome internalized homophobia?Love you dudes.TL; DR: What are some good ways to overcome internalized homophobia? via /r/askgaybros https://ift.tt/36gapkQ