Extra spoon? Anyone?

Hello group!I am a long time lurker and upvoter but am not sure I’ve ever posted before. I am 36, husband, father of 5, and a pastor. My life keeps me moving and sometimes that is hard as most everyone here knows. I just needed to voice something to my people who would understand because a lot of people just don’t.After my stroke in 2012, I became the stay at home parent and my wife was thrust into the bread winning role over night. It was traumatic and a nightmare but she has been amazing and four years ago started her own business! She provides for our family in the most excellent way possible. That still leaves me with the day to day duties of the home though. Before COVID that wasn’t an issue because all my kids are school aged and really I could rest as needed and only had after school to contend with.Since they’re all home though, I am exhausted before 2pm. Tonight I made fried green tomato BLT’s for dinner and store bought potato salad. After I called everyone to the table I slipped away to my room to lay down for a while before joining them. It was all I could do to get here.I’m blessed to have a wife who supports me and gives me all the room I need to get through the day. But I have to admit tonight I am struggling. My knees are the size of cantaloupes and my hands are cripped up as well. I’m so tired. For months now, I’ve been so tired. And I tonight I had the horrible day dream of having another cardiac episode and having to go back to the hospital for a week just so I could rest.I know the burden is my fault for not having my teenagers help me more now that they’re all home but I just needed to say I’m tired and be heard.Anyone have a spoon I could borrow so I can eat dinner? LolThank you for listening! I’m praying for you all. via /r/lupus https://ift.tt/3iiOV9C