Tuesday, September 29, 2020

Can someone help me choose!?


Please go to Problem in bold for tl;dr version :)I'm 30F, I wanted to get married by 25 with my then ex, but we broke up, and later I went for an arranged marriage setting(The thing where your parents arrange or see guys for you and you go on a couple of dates and decide). I don't actually believe in this kind of marriage, but I wanted to give it a try, I met few guys(who all earn nice, good positions, good families with reasonable financial status), But I am not attracted to them, I think being attracted to your partner is the #1 important thing in a relationship. All these guys are nice, respectable, behaves well, etc, just that they don't look horrible but not handsome, (before you think, I'm dodging them only for not being handsome, let me tell you my first ex is a bit bald, and really don't look good at all, but I'm not talking solely about looks) , it's a bit of attractiveness and chemistry between is the #1 important thing.What I think I bring to table is1)I look reasonably good though short, according to society standards of mine, I'm definitely cute and better.( I also eat healthy and workout at times(not really regular)2) Earns good and works in a good company3) Believes in being submissive if I get a partner whom I love and respect. (Submissive here doesn't mean, ready to get abused or kind of bs, just that I'm up for taking sole responsibility of kitchen, home and even kids with a little to minimal help from him), I usually like it that way, I don't mind being in less paying career for a while or being home also, if my partner is earning much better than me.4) I'm kind of a shy and not do so well socially and don't have that many connections or friends really(This is the only reason I failed at dating now, according to me).5) Doesn't mean that i have huge issues(I mean I've confidence issues, but I'm working on it, I recently signed up for a talk outside of my workplace, this is huge for me considering how uncomfortable it gets for me.) This is just to tell that I agree I've issues and work on it.6) I'm hugely sarcastic and funny and great at giving some life advice/insights when I get comfortable with people. I definitely enjoy my time alone too except sometimes I feel lonely and curse myself for not having enough social skills or built up some network.I've dated 3-4 guys, I've never had bad experiences with men, all of them are nice, and if I commit, I would do anything to make a relationship work except being a doormat.Problem:So, Again I got a match, this guy is the same(good job, great money blah blah), we met twice, and I don't feel chemistry anyway. He'll be a good husband in terms of taking care of me, my needs, having fun(he is social), a plain zero in looks, but respects women kind, understanding, etc.(Basically he could give me everything except that romantic vibes I want from my partner because for that I think you guys should deeply in love with each other) His family is definitely nice. ( I met them in the second meet). They liked me, and want to go ahead, I'm in a huge dilemma now.The thing is , I won't definitely get any better guy than him.(I think this because of the pattern i observed), and if i dodge this, I most definitely end up being single. I'm not a person who would choose single by choice.I might have a reasonably good life being single, feeling lonely at times, on the contrary, if I marry this guy, I will get almost everything except being in true love kind. Good family, kids, he will even be a good husband by taking my opinions etc. I hope some of you could understand what I'm implying.What do you suggest for me? I'm also 30 already and it's hard in my culture to get married once you age so much, annd I personally think it's better to marry early since I'm looking to have kids too. I don't certainly want to reproduce in 40's and spend my 50's and 60's looking after them and toiling hard, when you should be little relaxed from resposibilities at that age! and I'm not even so high value to attract a guy of my liking, since most guys are also not interested in me and also I don't happen to meet as I'm not so social. even if I plan working on getting social and cofident, and finally attract a guy of my kind, it will most definetely take 4-5 years, and my pool of guys will be much lesser(it's already less since almost guys my age are married), and marrying at 35(even if I get lucky, I hate being pregnant so late! ) at this age, i don't mind opting for not having kids even if I love kids. it doesn't make much sense to me.Thank you so much if you read this and give your thoughts, you don't know how much you're helping me :) via /r/TrueOffMyChest https://ift.tt/36jPOMr

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