My dad and me

I just want to write this because I keep it inside so much.I’m a 26 year old male who is really doing my best. When I was 13 I caught my dad cheating and that ofcourse subsequently led to my parents divorcing. My dad married the woman he cheated on my mom with and I was forced to go there twice a week. Most of the time we would argue and he would throw me down the stairs, get on top of me and scream in my face.She ended up getting sick with cancer and lost her eyesight in one eye. My dad left her shortly after.I was in the army at 18, shortly after my first return home my uncle and aunt who I was very close to because I would talk to them about how little I wanted to be alive and how much pain I felt also got divorced. They had 2 kids together.Within a month of their divorce my dad and my aunt moved in together and began dating, shortly after were married. This obviously resulted in my dad being exiled from the family.What is most painful is that he was a horrible father to me and my sister. Both of us have decided to never talk to him again. My sister just had a son that will never know his grandpa.His Facebook is a tribute to his new family, with photos of my uncles kids who will have to grow up to understand that their mom married their dads brother and they are raised by both.My dad is a very successful businessman, both my uncle and aunt are lawyers.And I feel forgotten and unwanted. This is what I’ve felt my whole life. I stumbled across a picture of him and my new step brother who seriously has the same name as my uncle. (Mikey).If you didn’t know him personally you wouldn’t know that he has actual children who he just acts like doesn’t exist. And it really hurts.I don’t like living my life and I feel so much pain. I just want to be my own man and move on to be successful. But I just feel so stuck and so hurt. via /r/offmychest https://ift.tt/2ToTAMR