...and my depression is treatment resistant, and my psychiatrist gave up on me because I'm not allowed to take almost every antidepressant because of allergies.We're about 5 weeks into the semester and I've had to drop all but one class, and I still can't get my act together to deal with that ONE class.My autism documentation states that I have very poor executive functioning and need extra support, but my parents never bothered to even read my documentation, so I didn't get that (or the IEP, or the therapy, etc etc).I remember how my parents stopped doing homework with me when I was in fourth grade, and ever since then, homework has been the world's biggest struggle. I just .. procrastinated until I had to rush it. I don't think I learned anything in high school and college so far because I can't focus on anything so everything has been rushed. I don't know how I've made it this far. I went from a gifted kid in elementary school to graduating high school with a low gpa and being really horrible at college. I wasted my entire education because I can't focus on a single freaking thing.Even when I was in like second or third grade, my dad would give me packets to do on my days off from school. I had all day and yet I would procrastinate until the night, and he'd get home and get mad. It even got to the point where he started taking my stuffed animals away and I STILL WOULDN'T DO IT. I even started sleep walking/talking about how sad I was about that. Wtf is wrong with me? Why can't I do anything???(sorry for being here when I'm not diagnosed; i feel like it might just be autism but most autistic people can actually do their work... meanwhile i haven't done a single thing all week other than playing a stupid phone game. litearlly all week. i'm on level 5160 and i hope it ends soon so i can get stuff done, but id probably end up finding another damn game to do the whole time. i hate this) via /r/ADHD https://ift.tt/33izZUC
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