You’re beautiful when you look at me

Hey Honey, I’m sitting here thinking about all of the times we’ve spent together. Remembering the conversation we had the other night. We were on the porch, talking about our friend that’s started dating someone who has kids and she only JUST realized she could end up being a stepmom. I don’t remember how, but somewhere the conversation turned to us having kids. I’ve always been dead set on not having kids. For about 7 years now, I’ve always disliked kids and swore I’d never have kids. But the moment you looked at me and said “I’ll be honest, I’ve thought about it.” And went on to tell me the type of dad you’d be. The home in your eyes melted my heart, and without realizing I was already saying “I’d honestly love to have kids with you some day. Because I know we’d make great parents and wouldn’t raise them to be little fucktards.” The shock on your face and tears in your eyes proved to me that I really did just say that out loud. For two days I’ve asked myself “did I really say that fucking shit?” And now I’ve accepted it. I did say that. I did mean it. I’m scared as hell, but yes. I’d love to start a family with you. Even though I was told that I probably couldn’t. Honestly I think that’s the reason I was so against, because I was preparing myself to never have any because I was told I couldn’t. So I’ve decided, I’m going to get a second opinion. And if they say it’s possible, I’ll tell you. Then we can plan and decide on when we want to start trying. But my god, I don’t know what you’ve done to me. Nobody has EVER changed my mind before, and you did without me realizing. I just love you so much. I love how you’ve helped me learn to love myself. I love how you set a fire in my soul with just your smile. I love how safe I feel on your arms, and how I can run to you when I feel fragile. You make me feel as if I could take on the world, as long as you’re by my side. To start a family with you, would be...there’s no way to describe how I’m feeling. I don’t know how to express the emotions that are swirling around inside me right now. I don’t know when or how, but I’ve fallen completely in love with you. All of you. And I want to spend the rest of my life with you. And I’d love to spend it as a family. Whenever we’re ready, I’m all in. For the first time ever, I’m ready.This was a rambling mess ahha via /r/UnsentLetters https://ift.tt/2RWw1dI