young adult daughter couldn't handle move to the suburbs and left me - I can't stop crying

I'm a woman in my later 40's that moved from nyc to Columbia MD (from Hollis Queens) with my daughter who's in her mid 20's this July. (Parents were from Raleigh, NC - southern values). We agreed it was time for a change, and different career opportunities for us both - being near D.C. and downtown Baltimore. March - June lockdown and continuing Covid crises has thrown many us out of sorts. Fear for our safety became too trying in nyc - vagrants and virulents amok. Green grass, less noise, safe, room to breath should seem great right? Wrong! She loathed it. Fast-forward many arguments, laughter over our favorite shows, tears trying to adjust - She left today. Packed her bags said she was sorry, but she was losing herself. I have a 2-bedroom apartment with horrible noisy neighbors from hell above us. No close family or friends cause we needed a break from toxic people. I'm alone, not married, and broken-hearted. I sacrificed most of my younger life helping take care of my sister's kids (my daughter) and partially hiding from my own I guess. I regret it. Tips from a stranger that's sad and might have to move somewhere else now - not sure where that is. via /r/breastfeeding https://ift.tt/3mKx4vu