I want to be Childfree (21F)

I have been serioulsly considering going childfree for the rest of my life. I am a 21F living in a family of 8. I am the eldest of 6 siblings. And let me say, I hate it with all my heart. My parents are amazing and all and they are a blessing. It is just that I hate children and the idea of becoming a mother.As the eldest (especially as the eldest daughter), I played a major role in the family as well as being considered the "second mom" of the house from a young age. I would cook all the meals for the family, watch over my annoying ass siblings, and am expected to do my own school work in my own time. All of this happens while my brothers waste away precious time playing on the computers and eating food all day long. I have been doing this from the age of 10ish. Watching and taking care of my siblings turned me into a mom at such a young age that I hated the idea of motherhood. I think if I wasn't born the eldest I would probably have a different view of motherhood. My sister who is younger than me lived such a luxury life without cooking or cleaning like I did, and she wants to have children in the future. In muslim culture a woman is expected to get married and have kids and a family all before turning 30. Like I know my parents would love the idea of becoming grandparents and seeing me married but I have already made a choice to find a partner who would not want kids. And if I cannot find that kind of partner so be it, I am perfectly happy to live a single meaningful life find out my own true identity and passions. I want to live a stress free life the way I want to. Maybe get a few cats and parrots (which I always wanted) I would rather 20 years down the line regret not having kids than to have kids and regret it for the next 20 years of my life. via /r/childfree https://ift.tt/32WEjbX