I used to read a lot, thought I would have a bright future, thought I could build something amazing, I was a very motivated until one fuck head decided to eat a bat now my life is all screwed. I’ve been locked up my house for 6 six fucking months, can barely go outside for fun with the boys because people can’t just wear a fucking mask and I might contact it and give it to my parents who are very old. I have zero fucking motivation to do anything, I’ve tried playing video games and talking to my friends on this discord but no fucking joy. I’ve tried learning Japanese cuz before me was very interested in it but still no fucking joy.My memory is vague as fuck I can barely replay old memories. Can’t go to a doctor cuz I live in a fucking shithole of a country where the bills are worst than your ills. I just want this to stop. Every single day I drag myself to live in this shithole with the rest of the motherfuckers who do dumb shit to fuck up everyone else. The only person makes me keep going is my mother because she keeps saying everything will be alright but at this point I’ve given up.What’s the point of life? You start school when your about 4 or 5, fuck around with your friends and study a lot of shit that won’t help IRL, then by your early 20s you finish school, get a job and start the real shit which is life. By the time you get kids you work your ass off just so you can afford the basic necessities for them, you literally work yourself to death. Then by the time your 60 you retire and then what ? At this point you’re pretty much too fucking weak to do anything to enjoy yourself. Who the fuck came up with this shit?Before quarantine I told myself I’d get better, I had so many goals for this year, I told myself I’ll emerge strong but now where am I ? Can barely concentrate on school work, college is around the corner and I’m asking myself what have I learnt, I feel like I’ve forgotten everything from school work, it takes me time to solve an easy question me in the past would do in seconds without a calculator.No motivation, joy or determination I want this to end via /r/depression https://ift.tt/2G5sLKg
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