Day 111

Around day 90-100 I was pissed and just wanted to feel better, had crazy urges and real talk if I had some I would’ve smoke but instead everyday I knew just go to sleep and talk out the feelings w a friend or my dad. (17 year old here btw) I’ve learned a lot of things about myself. Instead of waiting to get home and immediately smoke and watch tv I am able to hang out with people without looking at the clock or feeing like being somewhere else. I can enjoy activities without the need to find some weed. I hang out with better people for sure. I’m present in my life and not hazed out. I can go to school and not sneak in the bathroom trying to hide the smoke. I can do homework without thinking about what Id rather be doing. I can make money and not waste it on a disgusting habit and instead save for the future. I can lift and become uncomfortable and grow as a person. I don’t have a constant guilt anymore, I realized I’m a good person.Yah it’s a bit awkward when people ask if I smoke or drink since especially at my age (17) that’s what all the “cool” kids do and I’m fine with them doing them but I know for me it only causes problems. I can’t do it occasionally or once in a blue moon, it’s all or nothing for me which is hard to say but true.I started my sober journey from a mental hospital struggling with anger after a huge fight with my parents well about weed. Now we have a great relationship and my family is much more peaceful than it was. Although there’s some tuff times in my life at the moment like parents fighting w each other or doing college applications or not going to parties, my life has improved tremendously.I chose to get sober for a better life. I stay sober because I found it. via /r/leaves https://ift.tt/3lGv2v3