Does anyone else ever have imposter syndrome towards their diagnosis

Hey everyone this is something that i've wanted to talk about for a while but never really got around to doing so because I didn't really know how to express it. I was diagnosed pretty early since due to some other medical issues I was around a lot of doctors when I was little, so that allowed my parents to really start early with a lot of therapy in order to help with many of the obstacles that often come with aspergers. The thing is, they only told me about my diagnosis until I was around 12 or 13, even though I got it when I was around 4ish and was later diagnosed again by different professionals. Looking back on it a lot of things now make sense, such as me always chewing through my shirts as a form of stimming to the point that I had to get a little rubber necklace I could chew on instead, Or not being able to make direct eye contact as a kid, or feeling for all of my childhood that I didint fit in and was unable to do what came as easily to everyone else, not being able to properly regulate volume, or just why I always seemed to be in a psychologists office and a physical therapist even though I never thought I had any significant issues. All of these things seemed normal during the time or I at least didint realize that most people didn't really have to do this sort of stuff. Then there was a drastic change in my life at around middleschool where I switched schools due to severe bullying in my first one and suddenly had a blank slate to start from (note the change in schools happened before I knew I had aspergers). When I finally switched schools I put a lot of effort into masking as to avoid being bullied again and thanks to all that therapy I was able to do a pretty good job of it, even if I was still pretty reserved and literal and odd. Now heres the issue, since by the time my parents told me about my diagnosis it had been around a year since I stopped all forms of therapy and I managed to be able to mask pretty well to the point that I had a pretty good group of friends I didint really belive it since a lot of the heavy lifting happened when I was still super young. Never hearing the diagnosis from a doctor also really is a big issue for me since just hearing it from my parents never made it feel as if this were real. Now (currently in 11th grade btw) that I go on communities like these and read all the posts and see all of the stuff people struggle with that may not be as obvious as some of the signs which the media seems to portray I feel really understood but still a bit like this is a lie. It feels as if I am not autistic enough to be a part of this comunity just because I learned to hide it really really well at a huge expense to my mental health. What im most scared of is that one day I will go to a psycologist on my own and that they will just tell me that nope, you are just normal and all that stuff you went through was just averege introvert or teenager stuff and you simply projected into this community and all those 3 other doctors where wrong and simply misdiagnosed you because you where little. I feel like having aspergers at this point is both something intrinsic to who I am and also something that may not actually be there and something which I tricked myself to belive. If you read this far thanks, I was wondering if any of you had any advice with this sort of thing or simply have gone through periods like this before since it would be super helpfull and reasuring.thanks via /r/aspergers https://ift.tt/34v2Ggm