What a roller coaster

This is the biggest decision of my life, hands down. My sweet LO is almost 2 years old, and our family of three is quite in a good place right now, aside from the terrible two's tantrums. From the beginning, my partner was sure he was one and done, and I was on the fence, but the more I browsed OAD subs and articles, I convinced myself one was enough. Then, my partner returns from a party where he talked quite a bit with his friends-with-multiple-kids, and they pretty much convinced him to have a second. So the following day he came to me and said he changed his mind and would like to give our first a sibling, ideally before his third birthday.I surprised myself of how thrilled I was, it was sort of a relief to think we could just plunge and make a final decision once and for all. Like that "rip the bandaid" move, "it's going to be hard but worth it", etc. We couldn't regret going forward, could we? A few days have passed, I just haven't stopped thinking about having another, and I am so scared it's making me insane.The thing is, I am still very tired from parenting my 2yo (working full time as well), and as much as I love him, I honestly don't always enjoy spending a full day with him (I sometimes look at the clock counting down the minutes until he is asleep again). Also, after reading multiple stories of couples just not making it through two kids, I am afraid that this could be the beginning of the end for us, as we are both exhausted and not taking enough time for our couple at the moment (not fighting but not truly bonding either). On the other hand, I think I want another because I can easily envision myself being pregnant again and have a family of four. Also, we don't have any relatives around, we live in a rural area with very few neighbours, and this motivates us to give ourselves (our LO and us) more company in life.If anyone has any good insight, of experiences to share, please do because I am lost. via /r/Shouldihaveanother https://ift.tt/3du3beA