Getting spayed next week

First post here. I'm not expecting anything, but I wanted to get my thoughts out.​I was expecting a fight to get my tubal but I submitted my medical history and the doctor came in and confirmed everything I was going to argue:you have a genetic condition that shouldn't be passed on*you're of sound mind and ageyou've tried hormonal BC and the IUDpregnancy would be v risky for someone with your cardiac concernsI had to wait the mandatory California 30 days, but I'm scheduled for surgery in a week.I'm thrilled. I keep racking my brain trying to make sure I'm 100% about this and am not going to want a brood of my own someday. I'm coming up blank. :)Ever since I learned in high school biology about sexual reproduction and genes, I've been sure that my parents should never have had children nor should this shitty bloodline continue another generation. Sure enough, my 3 siblings and I are all single, childless adults.I mean, one of the only things my older brother remembers about our grandfather (who died when I was very young) is his mantra:Never get married, and if you do, don't have kids.We're just as dysfunctional as any other family, but I take comfort in knowing that my siblings and I have reached the same conclusions independently of each other and for our own personal reasons.My parents have the general aura of dissatisfaction that all of their friends and family have grandchildren, but they've always assured us that they don't want us to have kids just because we think they want grandkids. My mom did tearfully tell me that having kids was the best thing that she ever did, but I think she's since made peace with my decision.IDK. I'm excited and scared to enter this new (but not really) chapter of my life. I guess support/affirmation would be welcome.Thanks for listening. <3* side-rant: I have a connective tissue disorder that my twin sister and I inherited from my mother. My mother didn't know she had it even though she is over a foot taller than her 4 siblings. We're pretty well-connected to our community of fellow mutants, and have gone to annual conferences multiple times. There are PEOPLE who have suffered their whole lives with these genes, who KNOW they are carriers and still choose to have biological children with a 50% chance of inheriting the gene. If I think about it too long my blood pressure gets dangerously high for a person with my inherited, life-threatening cardiac concerns. via /r/childfree https://www.reddit.com/r/childfree/comments/j8g4kk/getting_spayed_next_week/?utm_source=ifttt